Be Thou Humble

I don't blog very often about spiritual things.  It's probably because sometimes I feel embarrassed since I don't know who reads my blog besides my family and a few friends.  I'm going to do it anyway because I always love to share what I have learned.  So here I go...   

For the last couple of weeks I have been struggling/thinking about doubts, fears and inadequacy.   I have definitely recognized this the whole time and I knew I needed to overcome this.  I prayed really hard and I just wanted Heavenly Father to immediately fix my problem.  Last week I realized that the speed of the course that we are on does not matter, but in the direction.  I knew I was headed in the right direction, but I just wanted to fast forward all of my problems.  Challenges take time to over come.   

This girl in my ward gave an excellent lesson in Relief Society last week on being Valiant in the cause of Christ.  It was exactly what I needed!  Hopefully I can be of help for any one.  Satan's greatest ability is making us fear and doubt and feel as though we are not strong enough.  We may feel inadequate, but we have to remember that Heavenly Father is there and all we need to do is open up to him.  Prayer is the means.  He is willing to listen and he is willing to help.  Even Christ at the very end of his life asked for Heavenly Father's help, and then he said "thy will be done."  Heavenly Father is constantly reaching out to us and blessing us  and it may not seem like that all the time.  Some of the blessings may include someone who reaches out to us or it can even be the absence of something like fear, or doubt, or stress in your life.

Mosiah 5:15

"Be steadfast and immovable, always abounding in good works, that Christ... may seal you his, that you may be brought to heaven, that ye may have everlasting salvation and eternal  life, through the wisdom, and power, and justice, and mercy of him who created all things, in heaven and in earth, who is God above all. Amen."  

We then went on and talked about our strengths and weaknesses.  We are given our strengths to fight our weaknesses.  Look at your weaknesses as an opportunity for growth.  We have so much potential.  The relief society teacher then asked for 3 volunteers to brag about a person in the room.  One of the girls bragged about me and she said the sweetest things about me.  It just made my day.  She then had those same 3 girls brag about themselves and this was a lot harder to do.  I realize that I need to be better at this.  I can go on and on about someone else and recognize all of their good qualities, but it is so hard for me to see mine.  I then read in D&C 46 where it lists some spiritual gifts.  I recognized the gifts that I have been given and I am so blessed to have them.  

"Be thou humble in thy weakness, and the Lord thy God shall lead thee,
Shall lead thee by the hand and give thee answer to thy prayers.
Be thou humble in thy pleading, and the Lord thy God shall bless thee,
Shall bless thee with a sweet and calm assurance that he cares."

Since being out at college for the past 3 years, I have discovered some of my true weaknesses.  My only hope is that I can use my strengths to overcome these.  I have so many blessings and gifts to be grateful for.  I have loving family members, friends,and a bishop who care about me.  They keep me going.  More importantly I have a loving Heavenly Father who loves me and knows me better than any one.  He wants me to succeed.

Oooo kaaayy on a lighter note, here are the top 10 highlights of my week!

1. I bought my plane ticket to London tonight with about 5 other girls and I am soooo excited.  Ill be gone from June 22 to August 10 and it was kiiinda pricey.

2.  I bought this really great shampoo and conditioner that Emily suggested and I'm in obsessed with it. 

3.  Friday night, me and my ward went to this indoor water park place, which was so awesome because it is still snowing outside and it is almost April!!!  I can not wait for spring.  Lots of fun things in store. 

4.  I rented Twilight yesterday and realized just how bad of a movie it was... but yet I still find it very intriguing.

5.  I stumbled upon this really good forum called Thinking Habits and Dispositions which was also just what I needed to read this week. 

 http://speeches.byu.edu/reader/reader.php?id=7483 

6.  I played tennis a couple times, which is one of my favorite things to do.

 7.  I got a 20 page letter from my grandpa about how he proposed to my grandma.... um yeah still have not finished that one.

 8. Watching American Idol.  Matt Giraud is hands down my fave and I was so shocked when he was in the bottom 3!  I'm lovin' this season.

 9.  I got a  "Kiss me I'm a Bulldog" bright green, XXL shirt in the mail from my dad.

10.  And the crowning moment of my week was seeing Gary Coleman come into Costa Vida! Yeah I know he is not all that exciting, but when you are in Provo, you take what you can get.

Whatcha talkin' bout willis!!!

Cheerio y'all!!